However, this couldn't last for ever. No lasting relationship is ever built solely on the way one makes another feel. Eventually Jesus challenged me to really get to know Him. He didn't want me to simply follow Him because of the way it made me feel. He wanted more. He wanted me totally. He wanted my heart and soul. It was time for a deepening of our relationship. Like any human relationship - friends, family, marriage - often that deepening is marked by struggle, sacrifice, suffering, and long periods of conversation and healing.
In today's Gospel Jesus is trying to foster a deeper relationship with the Jews and God. He is trying to bring them to a new level of "knowing". There is no doubt that these men knew much about God but they were living at a superficial level. They were not going deep into the heart of God. Jesus attempts to show them that all that has happened up to this point - Abraham, the prophets, and all the rest - was pointing to this moment of grace, His coming. For many, however, this was too much. Their hearts were so hard at this point that they could not hear what was being said to them. They thought they knew God but they could not hear His voice or see His face as He stood before them. Their pride in "knowing" about God made them blind and deaf, unable to see, hear or know I AM.
Lord, help me to love you more today. Help me to be open to what it is you are calling me toward. Open my ears, my eyes, and my heart to know you intimately regardless of how I may feel.
FROM THE SAINTS - "Doubt, whether it concerns the field of knowledge or the good name of others, is a plant that is easily sown but very difficult to root out." - Saint Josemaria Escriva Furrow # 603